Hard Beyond Hard Beyond Hard

Someone shared THIS article with me today on facebook.  I normally ignore these kind of post because honestly, I'm tired of hearing "God won't give you more than you can handle", "It will get better", "Have faith", etc.  The truth is God DOES give you more than you feel like you can handle, it's possible it will NOT get better and of course I have faith- why even say that? But the truth is, when you are really hurting from loss, I mean REALLY hurting, it doesn't matter what anyone does or does  not say, they are probably still going to disappoint you.

I feel like I could highlight the whole article but this is what stuck out for me the most:

         

 "You get the feeling of wanting to pull a Mike Tyson on the next person who pats you on the shoulder   and tells you, “Life is hard, but God is good.” Because really? No sheetola. Life is hard. Welcome to Planet Freaking Earth. And yes, God is good. (Amen and amen.) But sometimes you JUST WANT A BREAK FROM HARD. And no cliché, no platitude, no pat on the back, no sweet somethings from someone who cares will give you that respite for which you desperately long"

"Your husband unexpectedly passed away one year ago and with him went all of the oxygen in your lungs and in your home and you are drowning in your own grief but you have to act strong enough to help your kids not get overtaken by their own painful loss and you keep thinking it will get better or at least easier and it hasn’t and you keep putting one foot in front of the other but it doesn’t change reality. And though (most of) your friends try to be supportive very few of them truly understand and some might even judge. They want you to pull yourself up out of the trench of hard times and join their festivities of the normal. But you can’t. Because your life is different. And every day is beyond hard."

"Hard beyond hard beyond hard. Suffocatingly hard. Perpetual hyperventilation. And what makes it feel impossibly harder is that you can absolutely remember a time of life when it wasn’t this way. When faith wasn’t a fight and joy did not elude you and every day wasn’t a struggle." 

I needed this today.  I needed a reminder that when life is this bad and every night is so hard that it is ok.  And that life will be hard.  But given God's mercy, I will make it.  Thank for writing such a beautiful article, Heidi Weimar.  God spoke through you to him to me today.